#2: “I Didn’t Think It Would Work…”
So… I wasn’t sure if I should post this, but I’ve been lurking here for a while and figured some of you might understand.
I always thought hypnosis was kinda fake. Like, how could a voice in your headphones actually change anything? But last week, I put one on just out of boredom. It was one of those “soft feminization” tracks, nothing hardcore, just gentle suggestions about being pretty, relaxed, and open.
At first, I laughed. The lady’s voice was so calm, so sweet, it almost felt cheesy. But then she kept repeating things in this rhythm that made my mind wander. “Relax… deeper… softer…” Over and over. I thought I was still awake and rolling my eyes, but then I noticed, my hands weren’t moving. My body felt heavy, like I was glued to the chair.
And here’s the part that got me: she told me to picture myself brushing my hair in front of a mirror. I don’t even own a wig, but the image came so naturally, it was like my brain already knew what that version of me looked like. Long hair, shy eyes, pink lips. I swear I almost cried.
By the time she started calling me “good girl,” I wasn’t smirking anymore. I was whispering it back under my breath, without even thinking about it. My face was hot, my heart racing. It didn’t feel forced, it felt like something I’d been holding back forever.
When the track ended, I just sat there in silence, touching my cheek like it wasn’t even mine. It wasn’t scary. It was… freeing. Like I’d been handed a key to a part of me I’d always kept locked up.
Since then, I’ve listened a few more times. Each time, it’s easier to let go. And honestly? I kind of look forward to it. Not because I think I’m getting brainwashed, but because for half an hour, I get to feel like me.
I don’t know if this counts as being hypnotized “for real,” but something definitely shifted. For the first time in years, I don’t feel weird for wanting this. I feel seen.